Thursday, March 28, 2013

To Kill A Mockingbird



    
    To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee is unarguably one of the merit of American literature  It’s the representation of an important era in U.S history. By describing the lives under the Great Depression in a southern small town, Maycomb, To Kill A Mockingbird reveals the permanent themes of the perplexity human nature, hypocrisy, racial and sexual inequity, and the nonavailability of becoming apathetic in the way to adulthood. These themes are the deep and profound introspection of our civilization that even decades pass, its value never faded.                           
   
    A person is hard to explicitly define as good or evil, most of the time these two contrary attributes coexist in same person. Mrs. Dubose, a vicious racist, who had poured her mean curses about Atticus on two innocent children, eventually reveals her nobility as the story advance. It turns out that she was morphine addicted, and knowing her days will soon come, decided to "leave this world beholden to nothing and nobody", even though that means afflicting insufferable pain. At this point, all the arbitrary labels about this lady vanished. A man's nature is far beyond our comprehension, but our judgments are often arbitrary and mist by our naive prejudice and preoccupation. We are stubborn and hardheaded to rely on our biased understanding of others, which makes the scene of posing morality sanctimoniously and accuse others so common in our civilization. Perhaps the only way to detach from this bigotry is, as Atticus said: "You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view", transposition consideration.
    
    As the material civilization progressing, people wear their personage in front of others, hypocrisy become part of the everyday lives. To Kill A Mockingbird accurately criticize this phenomenon. The most representative scene is the refreshment of the Missionary Circle. While Mrs. Merriweather kept on boasting her congregations’ achievements on aiding the Mrunas tribe in Africa, she ignores the poverty inside her community. Good deeds become the capital of showing off of her; the most benevolent intention isn't pure anymore.
    
    Racial and sexual discrimination are also the main theme of the book. Tom Robinson, the tragic figure of the story, who had been wrongly accused to rape a white girl. Even though the evidence clearly supports his innocence, he was still judge by his color of skin and been convicted. The scenario seems to be exaggerated, but that was exactly what had happened on history. People bear an innate prejudice, believed in the racial supremacy and inferiority, ignoring the fact that "all man are created equal". This foolishness incurred the misery of an entire race for years. Sexual discrimination is also implied in the book. Scout was constantly required by Aunt Alexandra to behave well and be a lady. The women's position was defined and solidified in that time, cut off all the other potentials and possibility of women----they were subjected to the social norm of male chauvinism.
    The last theme, and the most interesting theme, Lee tried to convey was child has more wisdom than adults due to their innocence. In the scene of Dill and Scout went out of the court and met Mr. Raymond, they discovered Mr. Raymond was pretending alcoholic to give the folk a reason about him staying with colored race. When Dill and Scout ask him why him tell them this, Mr. Raymond answered: "Because you are children and you can understand it." Our mind, by the influence of the education and social norms, are stuck into stereotypes and lost the capacity of comprehension. We start to observe this world through the lens of our ossification, rather than acquire information from fact itself. Thus, we become more stubborn and thus, we become more apathetic. Children's innocence is the purity of the world, fortunately we were born with it, but we lost in gradually during our way to adulthood. The world can only be harmonious and beautiful when all men are spiritually children, as the quote on the preface of To Kill A Mockingbird, "Lawyer, I suppose, were children once."

Friday, March 1, 2013

Self Portrait Poem


10 things to be true
1.    Life will be mundane without aestheticism
2.    Impermanence of all things
3.    Human cannot perceive objective truths
4.    Tolerance and acceptance make prosperity
5.    Life has no predestinated purpose
6.    Relativity of values and standards
7.    Respect to the world and tininess of mankind
8.    Human created the concept and identity of "I" thought they are segregated and individual
9.    The earth is round
10. The committee of 2013 Oscar is kitschy, snobbish and doesn't have artistic taste at all


10 objects I can't live without
1.    Internet
2.    Novels which ages approximately 50-100 years
3.    Jazz&New Age
4.    Cats&dogs
5.    Bamboo forest
6.    Sunset&dusk
7.    Beverages
8.    Different school of thoughts (philosophies, values, world views)
9.    Confidant
10. Chinese


10 things I should have learned by now
1.    Live peacefully
2.    Live unrestrainedly
3.    Economics
4.    Appreciation and aestheticism of colors
5.    Postmodernism and everything relate to it
6.    Leadership
7.    Existentialism (and other philosophy genres)
8.    An instrument (prefer harmonica or Guchin)
9.    Mixology
10. Cuisine


10 of my greatest fears
1.    Intolerable and depressive environments
2.    Imperious authorities
3.    Single thought dominates
4.    Extreme imperfection
5.    Furious temperament
6.    Change of environment
7.    Idleness
8.    Unwarranted Future
9.    Moth
10. Trypophobia   


10 things, places, people etc. that make me the most happy
1.    Listen to music while walking toward home in dusk
2.    Drink tea in an isolated temple
3.    Wander in subtropical mountain forest
4.    Curl up in the couch and read a book with hot drinks in winter
5.    Autumn Ginkgo
6.    Breeze
7.    Traveling
8.    Feast
9.    A profound discussion
10. Literatures


10 places I will visit before I die
1.    London
2.    Ireland
3.    Taj Mahal
4.    Amsterdam
5.    Rome&Vatican
6.    Jerusalem
7.    Mt. Everest
8.    Some isolated village hasn't influence by modernization
9.    Somewhere no concept of money
10. Musee du Louvre


Look yonder in the yawn,
There is John
An image of diligence, consciousness and curiosity,
That never went gone
Who has no siblings in that vacant house
Pursuing for harmony, wisdom, realization, and nothing else
Feel excited in the morning, sleepy afternoon
and melancholy wells up under the moon
Wandering in the bamboo forest, peering at the sea,
doing such things that others think fool
He often helpful, sometimes quibble,
pointing out the issue in his mumble
Escape from oppression, fear of imperfection,
unwilling to succumb to his limitation
Dream to see tolerance, acceptance and consciousness on earth
But he lived in China since his birth
Until one day, he went on the plane
With suitcases of two, his name is Su

Friday, February 22, 2013

How to become a superhero

Are you bored of everyday mundane life? Are you envious about those who can fly on the sky, run faster than light speed, and, most importantly, save the day and win the applause of your people (and perhaps a romantic relationship with a gorgeous lady or gentleman)? Are you willing to become the incarnation of justice? If so, you came to the right place. Here provides several ways to make you become a superhero, ultimately your Facebook status would be “The only reason I didn't call back is because I’m too busy, I got a world to save.”


No.1 I’m rich I’m rich I’m so rich. Become a superhero? Easy!

Although some said money isn’t everything, this isn’t true when it pertain to becoming superhero. Energy giant of Gotham City, Bruce Wayne and Arms merchant, Tony Stock are great examples. You don’t have to have to be “special” (besides you are ultra-rich) and you don’t even have to be smart (above average IQ is enough), the only thing you need to become a superhero is your astonishing wealth.

The benefit becoming a superhero through this approach is you can do whatever you like. If you like to show off, you could announce to the entire world about your identity (of course you can also keep low and listen to people gossip about you during the charity party you hold). In fact, you can even contradict your government when they demand you to turn your high-tech suits to them.

Villain too powerful to handle? Not a problem, just stuck into the prolong battle and your fortune will eventually wear them out.


No.2 Look down on nerd? They are the most dangerous men on earth
Wealth is no the only way to become a superhero. There is this kind of people, using their incredible intelligence  raise from nobody to superhero. This kind of people, is technically classified as “nerd”. While others are studying, they are studying harder, while others are entertaining, they are studying even harder, and while others are dating, ummmm, they are lonely. If you met the attributes above, congratulations,  you have a great possibility to become a superhero.
What you need to do is find some unidentified space ray and expose yourself under it, or to lure some insects to bite on you. You may struggle a few days (experience disfiguration, for instance), but pain is temporary, after that you will gain your super power.


No. 3 Super power? That’s for earthmen

“Only earth losers are thinking about gaining super powers, we noble, dignified and distinguished people from Kal-El don’t need that. Though we can fly, we are impenetrable  we have eye-lasers, wer don’t realize they are super powers. In fact, the only thing we use for our eye-lasers is barbecue ” Thus said superman in his old age autobiography, The man form Kal-El, the life of a over-stressed superhero.

Just like the beggar in Switzerland is more wealthier than a “middle class” in Ethiopia, a loser from Kal-El can be a hero on earth. Therefore you don’t need wealth, you don’t need intelligence  you only need to be born at the right place. What, you are Thor? The Republic of Earth welcome you, but we cannot give you privileges,  please pass the inspection of Men in Black first.
在《超人:钢铁之躯》里,超人没有了红内裤,不过这不影响超人成为非人类超级英雄的代表。


No. 4 The rise of the gigantic normal men

What if you don’t met any conditions above? What if you are just a miserable office worker exploit by your employer and have no holiday at weekend? Don’t worry, you still have chance to become a superhero. What you need is a skill that can make you distinguish from others.  

But attention, when I said skill, it can be anything, no matter how useless it seem to you or others. Perhaps your body is more flexible than the Yoga master as catwomen, or your vision can replace microscope as Hawk Eyes, or you are just simply so hilarious and ridiculous as the Kick-Asses.

So don’t be frustrated when your talent seem to be so useless, when some weirdo whose only talent is make his car light green (Green Hornet) can save the world, why can’t you?
猫女是靠努力超越自身的卓越代表。当然性感是天生的。


Friday, February 15, 2013

How to meditate

Introductory


Meditation isn’t exclusive to any religion; it’s a method of going deep into the natural state of self-awareness. Freeing oneself from minds, thoughts and concepts and rediscovering the self-awareness will be beneficial for one to understand the question “who I am?” and achieve an inner peace. This is the ultimate purpose of meditation, not to mention there are tremendous secular benefits it can bring such as relieving stresses, adjusting emotions and restoring the proper function of body, both mentally and physically.
The theory of meditation is human body, like everything in this world, is an energy field, it can sense, absorb and diffuse even a slight energy, whether it’s from itself or other energy field. To give some proofs, one can sense others whether he/she is at rage or amiable without the mind’s analytical participation (when you walk through someone, if you have enough concentration and awareness, you can sense his/her mood), one can also affect by emotions from other things and people (an orchestra, a movie or a people) and engender a resonance. When the energies function harmoniously, one can feel the inner ecstasy (distinguished from happiness) and peace, but when it disordered by mental or environmental distractions, it will result in misfortunes.
The preliminary goal for meditation is to restore the harmony in your energy field, but the ultimate purpose, as stated before, is to realize the true noumenon (thing-in-itself) and develop a constant self-awareness to this noumenon

Preparation
To meditate, you will need:
1.      Comfortable clothing and some blankets
2.      A quiet and relaxing environment
3.      Concentration
4.      Perseverance

Steps:
1.      Wear your comfortable clothing
2.      Find a quiet and relaxing environment where you wouldn’t be distracted and disturbed
3.      Persist to meditate every day.
4.      Lay out a blanket on the place for meditation, and sit down in whichever posture you are comfortable, but remember to sit up straight (the typical posture is sit with your leg crossed, lotus-style, but it’s not necessary). Bare-foot is recommended, because it can increase the contact with environment. Put the blankets on your legs if you feel cold. Put your hands on your knees, palms up and close your eyes, slightly incline your forehead.
5.      Begin with a deep breathe, inhale as deeply as you can, until you can feel the air in your chest, and exhale gently, like all the moods that made you uncomfortable will be exhaled out of you with the air.
6.      Focus on something. It can be your breathe, your heart beating or even some abstract position in the air, as long as it can concentrate your conscious.
7.      Gradually shift your concentration until you are not concentrating on anything, and you are not thinking anything. Make yourself totally clear, and no thoughts and emotions are troubling you.                  
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8.      Examine yourself and see if you can feel the internal emptiness and external environment (such as the air, try to feel its temperature and moisture). If you feel your sensitivity increase astonishingly, congratulations, you have successfully entered the state of meditation.
9.      Preserve this state, until you feel it’s the proper time to end the meditation.

Tips:
1.      Never force yourself on concentration and the shift of concentration, every action should be natural. If you found yourself hard to do so, wait to another day, but always remember to try it every day.
2.      If you feel there are thoughts and emotions strike into your mind, don’t oppose it, let it be and repeat step 6 and 7.
3.      Feeling asleep during meditation for a starter is normal and beneficial, because all of your energies are consumed by daily trifles (the thoughts and emotions made you struggle), when this occurred, just naturally fall in sleep. Clearing yourself is a long process, it doesn’t need to rush.
4.      When you are proficient in meditation, the environment will not restrain you, you can get deep into this state wherever and whenever, even when you are doing something else.   

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Blogs Browsing


This is a blog about china from a western point of view, the blogger lived in Xi’an, China for three and a half years. Xi’an used to be 13 dynasties capital, thus preserved a typical Chinese culture. The blogger’s view is really interesting to a Chinese, its reflection both help me understand Chinese and western culture more. The picture on home page caught my eyes; it’s the blogger standing before a lake under snow mountains in some plateau. The extensity and boundlessness suddenly welled up my resonance. I suppose he would be someone never refrained by anything. The whole interface is clean and concise, in a delicate position----beyond it will be too much, beneath it would be too less. His use of visual elements, especially videos, really enriches his content, and beneficial for foreigners to understand what China really is.

This blog is about Zen. Zen is a unique genre of Buddhism originated from China. It abandoned ascetical life and appeal natural life to enlightenment. As same as Buddhism, it believes in constant contemplation and introspection, all matters come from one and all matter can only solve by oneself. The reason Zen attract me is that it never try to complicate the truth which supposed to be plain and simple and it provide a natural and magnanimous approach. The blogger, interestingly, was an American converted Buddhism. He tried to convert many Buddhism ideas to western thinking model, though distorted occasionally. His interface is concise, just as the essence of Zen, but has profound and inspiring content. He has the sense of design that every single picture he chose is perfectly fit to the content, and makes it contemplative.

This is a blog about Murakami Haruki, my favorite author. It’s easy to see from his name he is Japanese. He authentically inherited the melancholy fundamental key from Tale of Genji. It’s the bewildered, void melancholy though slight enough but you can’t ignore it. All of his books has a common theme, seeking. The blog’s background music makes you feel dreamy and unreal, and the combination of objects with boldly contrary color makes the entire blog artistic; a sense of Jazz pervades the blog. The blog include introductions and book review; it’s lots of fun for me to read others understanding of Murakami. 

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Three Questions


    Last week's field trip to BYU, UVU and the U really enriched my experience. Each university has their distinguishing features; they are unique, and fascinating. As an international student, these three top-ranking universities in Utah expanded my knowledge about university. My first impression was they have a great balance between academics and extracurricular activities. They weren't the university I visited before----either academic-focus school or party school. They provide a better campus life and therefore provide greater possibilities in the future. With this regard, I can draw up a clear plan for my life.
    There are three crucial questions to one's life, which are all relevant to the maxim engraved on the stele in the site of Delphi----Know yourself. I wouldn't necessarily relate them to the experience last week, because their answers are too essential to ascribe as the simple reflation from a short week, no matter how significant it is. They are life-long questions to contemplate.

1. Who am I?
If not pursuing for metaphysical answer, the answers could be variable. I can describe myself using all of my attributes----my name, my nationality, my personalities, my hobbies and even my achievements----but all these are impermanent and evanescent. They are changeable, and as they change, the identity that used to describe me lost its validity. I'm just me. This seems like a prevaricated answer, but this is the most precise and accurate answer language can express. The truth, many times, is plain and simple, exposes in the closest place every time, but people always intentionally ignore it. If I have to characterize myself, the only thing I can say is I constantly keep the awareness to obsession from egocentrism, which is the cause of all agony. We obsessed by many things, the things we used to own, the things we own and the things we haven't yet own. From money, power, to our identity, ideology. Both the shallowest and we so called "noblest" thing can obsess us. But there natural evanescence contradict to our will to possess it forever; when this contradiction occurs, we anguish.
I tried as best as I can to transcend this obsession, therefore I'm no one, I'm just myself.

2. What was I born for?
Unlike the majority, I didn't believe one has been predestinated a mission before he was born. Men are like orphans abandoned in the wilderness, perplexed panic, and terrified. The gravity of tracing origin constantly motivate us to ask the question of "where am I from" and "where would I go". Different people can have different answer by appeal to different approach. I asked this question and ended up fruitlessly, therefore I simply attributed to "I born to live". I understand people tend to endow deeper meaning to life to make the existence more valuable. I've seen an introduction of a documentary, it asked the same question----"What is the ultimate goal of your life? For only one in ten million people, that answer is, 'Enlightenment'." Despite my failure in seeking the meaning of life, my nature still strive me to obtain a satisfactory answer. If enlightenment is the approach, I will proceed without hesitation. So my answer to this question is, "to understand what was I born for".

3. What can stop me?
After written the ethereal things above, finally there is some tangible things to talk about. As a mortal human, I'm week and limited. I've been defeated by many things, even the slightest difficulty, and I'm certain that I will still be defeated times and times, but they never stop me to explore. Throughout all, the most difficult obstacle for me to handle is a restrained environment. I lived in a over-pressured, restrained and single-valued society in China. I felt meaningless to pursue what the majority called "mainstream". I felt tired that my behavior, my aspiration and my life have to be dictated by others and constrained by environment. Notwithstanding I'm not what so called "full of potentials", but I merely deserve my own happiness. Under that kind of environment, I felt I was withering gradually, transforming from a creature to a machine, and rusting from time to time. So I seek for change, I came to study abroad. As I visited the three Universities last week, I felt an intense feeling of this would be the life I expect, at least for some period. Because of this, I started to have a clear and specific image about my goal----to live naturally and unrestrainedly.
                                          
                                          
                                                

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Do As Much As You Can

Once one receive the true gospel of God, she/he is been blessed and also bear the responsibility to spread it to more people. Fortunately we have the privilege to access to the gospel, it's the ultimate truth to help us prefect and progress ourselves, but shouldn't we also make more people to receive it and make them realize they are one of sons and daughters of the beneficent God. We lived in a age of informational exposure, the easier access to media  brings much benefit for us to spread the gospel. One's ability is limited, but to do as much as he/she can is the only thing God wants us to do. We all are the factors of God's plan, and we should fulfill his plan. As for me, I'm interesting in internet, and was experienced in the new media. I would use blog, Twitter and Facebook to make as much people as I can to access to the true gospel. Additionally I wouldn't abandon the "old fashions", I will certainly talk and inform to who I meet about the knowledge of gospel. I believe no matter how slight each individuals contribution is, but together it will become an overwhelming stream and impact the world profoundly.    

Spread the Gospel

 "You have a great opportunity to be a powerful force for good in the Church and in the world."
It is our privilege to access to the restored gospel, and in the mean time we have the responsibility to spread it to others. Everyone have the potentials to influence others, to pay our effort to do as much as we can is the only thing what God would pleased to see us to do. With modern technologies it is easier to use the media, and through than we can accelerate the plan of God, by spreading his gospel. It's not only a blessing for the one who receive the gospel, but also a blessing for the one who spread the gospel. The spirit would have and extraordinary influence on you when you're fulfilling God's plan. And so those of them who can access to the gospel and understand the true meaning of the gospel should dedicate their lives to spread it.

"In many cases it is with words that you will accomplish the great things that you set out to do."
Take a wide view of human history and you will fine out that the most influential things is not war, money or power, it's words. The Holy Bible influenced generations of men and is still influencing. For those of them who is spreading the true gospel of the Church, the art of words is the best instrument for conveying the gospel, therefore one should master the skill of language. Let the words be your instrument to fulfill God's plan.

My Perfect Day

Milan Kundera said:"To sit with a dog on a hillside on a glorious afternoon is to be back in Eden, where doing nothing was not boring--it was peace."
On the way back home with my Alaska Malamute, the sun was gradually sinking down to the horizon line. The side walk, the bush, the phoenix tree, everything were plated with the grace of the tender sun. I didn't have a satisfactory day, or to be honest, it was terrible. My dog, chuck, seemed to sense my mood, wasn't as energetic and rebellious as usual. He walk aside me, occasionally sniffed here and there, but subsequently lost his interest. Some cars went by, resulted in the sound when it dashed the air. I lower my head, gazing at the walk road and thinking a solution for my trouble. Suddenly I felt a strong shove from the dog leash, I tottered and felt the leash was break loose from me. I realized chuck was running away off me, he was heading to the south hill. I followed after him, he ran much faster them me and finally he stopped on the top of the hill and sat down on the grass facing the sun set. He turn his head back to me and barked. I understand his intention, to sit down and wait for the sun set. I walked forth and sat down beside him. It was so sedate and the only sound can hear is from the soft wind. The sun was half below the horizon line, I imagined scene behind us was getting dark, but gladly there is still a glorious sun offering his illumination. I can't sense the time flow, when I realized the sun were already completely set, the dusk came. Somehow I suddenly understand something, and the trouble haunted in my mind was no longer bothering me. Chuck went up, dragging the leash and urge me to leave.